a small green house update
life is moving along at the green house. my mom lives with us now. lynn has been fully engaged with school. i spend my days with the girls, desperately missing my husband. time with him has become a precious commodity, something i prize above all other things. he has this weekend off, before starting a new semester. and he is doing quite well! i am very proud. but i constantly yearn for more time with him. for one more hug. one more kiss.
having mom here is nice. i no longer have to worry about her well being in a less-than-livable place. she has a bed now, as well as her own room, things she didn't have were she was living before. i get to see her and emma form a relationship, which is something that has been missing the last 2 and a half years. and she has a place to rest her body, so it can heal. it also softens the burden of having my husband gone all of the time.
emma has adopted a pattern of less-than-desirable behavior, something that we are working VERY hard at stopping in its tracks. she gets extremely frustrated, screams and refuses to cooperate. i think she might be upset at dad not being here as much, as he is her best playmate. she also has a lot of irrational fears, another thing we are working on healing. she is doing very well at her school work. she has almost mastered her letter sounds, and is starting to read small words. she can write anything if you tell her how to spell it. she can do addition and subtraction of numbers 1 through 20. she loves to paint. she will paint on a canvas for hours, if i let her. she gets frustrated at having the daycare girls here all the time, and frequently expresses her desire to just spend time with mommy and daddy. it must be hard having your space and your things invaded like that day in and day out. my heart aches to give her that space. but i remind myself that having them here is what allows me to stay home with her. otherwise, i would be going to work everyday and she would be going to daycare. so of the two options, this one is best. with dad being gone so much, she has become quite attached to mommy. she wants me to lay in bed with her every night until she falls asleep. she wants my arm around her and her feet on top of my legs, so that she can feel if i get out of the bed. from what i hear, this is exactly how her daddy was when he was little, which is very sweet.
i guess that is all! tootles.
Posted in: on 09 October 2009 at at 11:59 AM
